My name is Paige. I am 25 and grew up in a small town in southwest Colorado near hot springs and ski areas. I believe my parents loved me, yet they worked many hours as chefs and our home was one of addiction. Smoking pot and drinking was an every day affair. Because of this, as a child I had a lot anxiety about my parents’ health and well-being.
At nine years old, my grandma took me to church and I clearly remember inviting Jesus into my life as my Savior. But, I stopped going to youth group as a young teenager. My grandma moved and did not stay in touch.
As I grew older the way I coped was to join my parents, older sisters and brothers in drinking and substance abuse. My dad’s addiction got worse.
At 14, I quit school and began working full time as a dishwasher at Wolf Creek Ski Area. I stayed there for eight years, working my way up to assistant supervisor. During those years I would come home and often stay up all night drinking, sniffing cocaine, then go to work in the morning. At times I would even drive with my knees while sniffing coke. It is nothing short of a miracle that I’m alive.
I got my GED at age 18. At 20, I started a relationship with an opiate addict, and I started using heroin because I didn’t want to lose him.
I was in and out of jail on different levels of theft, related to drug use. I never tried to stop using until I found out I was pregnant and 5 months along. I was so skinny and such a mess I knew I needed help.
I went to a detox center and my son, Ronan was born healthy April 17, 2017. But he had to be detoxed off methadone with morphine. It is a miracle of God’s grace that he is happy and healthy. And today he is developmentally above average for kids his age in most areas.
I was on probation, but was non-compliant and ended up in jail again when Ronan was 5 months old.
My attorney was a godly woman who knew about Capital City Rescue Mission’s New Life Program for men because of another client. She learned about the Mission’s New Faith Program for women and fought to have me allowed to leave the state and enter the program.
At 6AM Saturday, March 24, I left jail with my attorney, was joined by my son and the three of us flew into Albany that night.
God has made a tremendous change in my life. He has strengthened me in my recovery from addictions. He has opened up a whole new world of possibilities to break the cycle of addiction that’s been in my family for such a long time. I’ve learned I had serious codependency on my parents – my best friends who then required my support for their addiction.
I’m understanding and putting into practice what a healthy life means. My desire now is for more of Jesus in my life, not drugs. I want to embody the love of Christ, the best I can. He has changed the desires of my heart.
I was baptized recently at Legacy Church, confessing my personal faith in Jesus’ death and resurrection. My church family has embraced me.
Being at the Rescue Mission, I get to explore what His plan is for me. I am learning how to raise up a believer in God’s family.
I never thought about furthering my education until I came here. Now I am working on cooperating with God and his plan. Romans 8:28 says, “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”
Thank you for a place to heal and grow and learn. Today, I know in all things in my life, God is working for the good. Praise God.